AHHHHHH!

HELP! Our computer isn't working!!!!! And all of my pictures are on there!!!!

Anyone know how to retrieve pictures off of a non-working computer? It turns on, and that is it....no picture on the screen...I think I want to cry.

Speaking of crying, that's all I've been doing this weekend. Crazy family stuff going on, not fun. Four of our seven chicken got eaten by a fox, again, because I forgot to put them away after the crazy family stuff. Felix has a really really bad cough. I'm hoping it's just from the crazy family stuff and maybe the weather, and that is it...I hope. I take him to see a doctor tomorrow morning.

On better notes, Felix's doctor's appointments went well. His eyes are looking good. He will have his corrective surgery in mid August. His feet are starting to pull up, which isn't good, so that's why they are going to do it then. It'll give him a little more time to grow.

I hope I can sleep tonight. I'm so tired (which is lovely!), so I'm hoping I can sleep well. My mind needs to rest.

Can I scream? And cry at the same time? I think so.

I feel complete...finally.

Felix has been home for almost 30 hours now. It still doesn't seem real to me, but I do finally feel normal. I cried quite a bit Wednesday when I walked out of Mount Washington with my baby in my arms. It felt too good to be true. It had been too long, 18 weeks and 6 days too long. That's how long this road has been for me folks. I know that there are others out there that have had their babies taken from them, that and some who have had their child in the hospital for even longer than I have. I don't know how they do it. I don't know how I do it. Actually, I do. Faith, prayers, TEARS, and patience. I thought I was patient, but Heavenly Father showed me what it really means to have patience. I think I have learned.

I finally feel whole. Complete. Myself, well, mostly...I still have some healing to do. Our family is whole. We are all home now. What a beautiful blessing it is. Isabella and Alexander LOVE and ADORE Felix. They are good siblings. They are sweet. I have seen a side of Alexander that I haven't seen before. Not that he isn't usually sweet, but he's just always so WILD. Not around "Baby". He is calm, affectionate, gentle, and very very sweet around "Baby". He always says, "Baby, hold it". It's sweet. And Isabella, what can I say? She is just so much sweeter around Felix. When he cries she will say, "awww, mami, he needs me." So cute.

So, here are a few (not really a few, but I did pick and choose) pictures from yesterday. Felix is a CHAMP when it comes to nursing. We had a fun night last night. It felt good to be tired this morning. I need to take more pictures, especially of the kids with Felix. Life is better now.

Crying all the way down.

His first real ride in a car.

YAY! BABY!

He was not put down for a LONG time. We love to rock and sing.

He is happy to be home.

Ronald had said that now our family and home feels right. I couldn't agree more.

His first REAL BATH at home! He loved it, of course.

A view of his spina bifida bump. One day he won't have his little "bunny tail" anymore. I'm not sure yet when that day is. He meets with Dr. Carson again tomorrow morning. I'm hoping that he won't need the surgery yet. I'd like to be able to enjoy having my baby home for a while.

So, since I am feeling better now, HOPEFULLY I will be up to blogging more. I think I will be able to make it happen.

Thank you all SO MUCH for all of your faithful prayers on behalf of our family. I know that those prayers helded Felix and I to heal, to get us through the really rough times, and I am sure that it helped to get him home. The most sincere thanks.

Father's Day

Just a few pictures from Father's Day. Our kids sure do love their papi, and for a good reason. He's silly, fun, and LOVES to be with our kiddos.

My girl

"Mami, can you take a picture of me with the chickens and my motocicleta?"

Me smiling, "Sure honey."

We do love our chickens. As Isabella says, "now they get to play by thereselves in the yard because they are getting bigger." I love this girly.

Tanner

My baby brother, Tanner (not quite a baby....almost 21!) is quite the musician. He hasn't taken any lessons, but boy, is he talented. I HAD to do a photo shoot of him, the sun was perfect, and everything was ideal. He cooperated, probably just because he was playing music. Any other time, he wouldn't have let me take his picture. I am very pleased with the results. These are my favorite.

I love you Tanner!

This is the face he ALWAYS makes when creating music.

Guess what?

Felix is coming home today!

We are getting ready to head out the door and bring our sweep baby home. This is 4 1/2 months overdue. I am looking forward to this.

Pictures to come...